tonight we had our hospital tour where i will have little baby very soon.  uncle lucas is in town visiting so he stayed home with adam. 

i did NOT expect to feel a lump in my throat the entire tour, to have my eyes get hot and stingy with tears as we walked through.  i just can't believe we'll meet this baby soon, that we'll be this blessed, that we'll have another little tater tot to love and see grow. 

of course, we got to see a tiny little baby in the nursery and it was so cute and pink and TEENY.  it's feet were the size of my thumbs.  i remember when adam was a baby and people with kids would hold him and say that they couldn't remember their own children being this small.  and i thought, back then, i won't let that happen, i will always remember how small he is.  but i have to admit that the baby we saw seemed AWFULLY small - tho i am sure adam was that size once.  it brings a whole new level to cherishing each moment with him and with this new baby.  it isn't a joke - the time passes so fast and so much changes so quickly.

very excited for the changes the next couple months have in store, tho they won't be easy.... we found out today eric will be away quite a bit in april, while i am packing, chasing adam, running the studio and wrapping up at work.  regardless.  i know we will make it through and be elated to meet this little one soon.